Am I that incapable ?

peace be upon you.

to have someone that able to actually lower your self esteem is sucks right?

yup, and frankly i have enormous amount of them around. and a big waste, one of them is on my family member and even worse, he is someone whom i respect the most.

you know having someone whom you always thought could be the one who give you all the motivation you need , as an idol on whatever field you are in, and those people are the same one whom always reminds you of how failure you are, how incapable you are and all those negative like that. sucks isn't it?

sometimes i wonder for how many achievements do i have to achieve to actually clear these people's minds that i can actually do things they say i cant? really? how many yet to have? seriously?